i'm so glad that my boyfriend understands and is on my side when it comes to the drama i deal with my girlfriends. i only really have about two close girlfriends... i have a lot of girls that im acquainted with, but aren't like best freind material per say... but now looking at it... i'm not sure i know what best friend material is. i had a bunch of stuff planned out for one of my "best friends" birthday. she was supposed to go to dinner with her family and boyfriend then her and her boyfriend we're to show up at the bowling alley. we we're supposed to go bowling at 9pm. when i called to see where she was at and if she needed a ride, she informed me that she was just heading out to dinner. then she asked what i was doing, and being frustrated from knowing that she was not going to show up that night i responded in a bitchy tone "well not going to buy you shit." this offended her and she said it was not her fault etc. later that night on her fb she updated her status thanking all the kids from church who decorated her car, another girl that we grew up with who went on a bike ride, took her to lunch, and took her shopping (please note she always complains about how annoying this girl is), and she thanked her "wonderful boyfriend" all for making her birthday so special. I wanted to comment so badly, but refrained. Because it would have gone something like this: "well glad to im a shitty best friend compared to all the others whom you tagged above because i clearly didnt do shit for my best friend on her birthday. But let me clarify that it is not my fault considering i had already planned to hang with you that night in advanced. but don't worry bc now i will be the bitchy friend, i took your gifts back and i don't feel bad, i needed to save money anyways." this is precisely why i did not comment.
on a totally different note... my boyfirend have an amazing sex life no problems, we keep it interesting and mix it up for the most part.... but i'm bothered by a few things.
1. Anal... really. i get the excitement of it being uncharted terrritory and tight so it would be a totally new experience, but im not sure that i really want to go all the way of having anal sex. i mean i let him dabble a bit... but im not ready nor do i know that i ever will be to do that. just kinda want him to back off the subject.
2. I don't shut him down hardly ever... outside of being that time of the month i think i've only said no like 3 times and only actually not let it happen once. So get off my back if i'm not in the mood. i know you watch porn, why can't you just go take care of it for yourself for the 3 times i'm not in the mood. I told him "surely you can't enjoy it if i'm just laying there not in the mood..." he said- well no, but it feels better atleast to pound away at it and get off... better than my hand. i mean neither one would be showing any emotion so its not really any different, but it feels better inside you. i just left it alone... but really, no emotion? DUH IM NOT IN THE MOOD! If i feel gross and sweaty and i'm tired then its probably good chance i'm not going to be able to get horny! God, give me a break.
3.Porn... like i stated above i know he watches porn... and its whatever, he doesn't watch it nearly as much as he used to. but today after the whole no emotion thing and me telling him to watch porn i left for work. While driving to work i get a text that says "Mmm much better mood now." JUST BECAUSE I TELL YOU TO GO WATCH/TAKE CARE OF IT FOR YOURSELF, DOES NOT MEAN I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT IT! maybe thats just me. but knowing that you watch porn and knowing the second after you got off to porn are two totally different things. i don't want to know that you're in a better mood bc you watched it, got off, and it was thanks to some other girl who was probably getting fucked in the ass!!
--well that's enough venting for the day... who knows maybe there will be more, idk i guess we'll see how the day goes.--
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