Happy right now...

Cinderella walked on broken glass, Sleeping Beauty let a whole life time pass, Belle fell in love with a hideous beast, Jasmine married a common thief, Ariel walked on land for love & life, Snow White barley escaped a knife. It was all about blood, sweat & tears because love means facing your biggest fears. ♥

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill... You'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming. They were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely 'cause almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they'll open their eyes and it will all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale might be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important that it's happy ever after, just that it's happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away." -Meredith Gray-

I'm coming to the realization that maybe I need to stop looking for these cliche and obvious "signs of love and appreciation" and see that I have those signs... I've just been overlooking them and seeing them as something else. I am happy! And I'm not excusing him from everything by any means. And I'm not saying that he doesn't frustrate and irritate me at times... because he does, but that's a RELATIONSHIP! ((DUH!)) I'm looking for a fairytale... I'm admitting it. But if my life were a fairytale... I can tell you I wouldn't have as much fun... I know that for damn sure. Do you see these fairy tales partying?  Do you see them going on motorcycle rides? Do you see them having fun in the bedroom? ;) Or do they dance to Eric Clapton's "Wonderful Tonight"? How about go to the Zoo and act silly? No... my life is way better than any damn fairytale. I don't have to give up my voice, start out as a peasant with an evil stepmother and sisters, I don't have to choose a from a pre-selected group of men to marry, I don't have to prick my finger and sleep forever, and I definitely don't have to eat a poisoness apple and die... just to get the man of my dreams. I already have him, why go through all that drama?

Sometimes you have to step back and look and the big picture... the whole picture... the front of the puzzle box, not just all the pieces scattered on the table with just a border. It's like we're always trying to put this puzzle together but we forget what were making, so we just need to look at the box. It's a nice reminder.